My husband and I had two little hearts grow during the height of the pandemic in 2021. The first baby we lost naturally by way of a miscarriage- while the second was an ectopic pregnancy, meaning the embryo had to be surgically removed along with the uterine tube it accidentally started to grow into.
My husband and I never got the love, hugs or physical support we longed for from our families because of international travel restrictions and quarantines in effect during the pandemic. We went through the hardest parts of our lives completely alone. In trying to find comfort we began to understand that things like this were happening to almost everyone. Yet, for some reason I still had never felt more alone.
The memento I’ve donated represents the comfort I found in wearing my hospital bracelets for the days and nights spent letting go of our babies. I told myself that as long as I had those patient bands on I was allowed to let the weight of the world crush me, and as soon as they came off I would pick myself up and keep going.
I give my memento because I don’t want to feel lonely anymore. The beautiful thing about this project is that we have the opportunity to love, support, recognize, and show up for each other, even when the real world feels like it is falling apart.
I am so appreciative of Emily for letting me be a part of her project- it has brought me healing in ways I didn’t even know I needed.
